Game of love
09 Aug 2015 Leave a comment
in Poems Tags: confused, games, in love, love
I entered the room and our eyes locked instantly
Suddenly my palms became sweaty
I didn’t realise that being weak in the knees was meant literally
And that my heart could beat so fast and yet not fail me
I want you
That was the thought I repeated
Like that annoying song you catch yourself singing
Because it drove me crazy but I couldn’t let it go
Too closed off to say I’d give you a chance
Too hurt to enter the realm of romance
My overwhelming fear disqualified me from this game called love
Until my vulnerability let me back in
Only to end up a loser yet again
You knew the rules or invented them along the way
I wonder. Which was your favourite game to play?
Truth or dare:
Do you dare me to take this chance with you?
Because I can tell that the feelings are true
Clue:
It was YOU who stole MY HEART with the weapon of YOUR WORDS in the place where I felt most comfortable, YOUR ARMS.
Twister:
Joyful roller coaster filled with colour
Didn’t matter if we fell,we always started over
Tetris:
Determined to make it work till we realised the pieces just didn’t fit
Yet I still pondered for a while when the screen prompted me ‘Are you sure you want to quit?’
Snakes and ladders:
The usual ups and downs, inevitable setbacks
We took one step forward but always made three steps backwards
Ludo:
Trying to no avail to find a way home
Striving to make a good impression on your family
But maybe for not being the right colour they couldn’t accept me
Monopoly:
It seems that all you had just wasn’t satisfying
The girls next door were more enticing
Why not take a card from the community chest?
But flip it over and see what you really get
Cards:
Suddenly one fell to the floor
Like you it was nothing but a joker
I decided that maybe it was time to start over
What I’m trying to say is goodbye, game over
Unanswered questions
29 Jun 2015 1 Comment
in Poems Tags: heartbreak, love, questions, relationships, romance, what if
How?
When?
Why?
What… did I get myself into?
If I knew that it would have started with a simple glance
Would I risk it now? Would I take that chance?
Your smile triggered a chain reaction
A whirlpool of feelings, emotional satisfaction
Yet these are the ones that I’ve come to hate
It seems like they came just a little too late
Don’t be surprised by the little child’s frown
The hate filled reply ‘Why can’t I have it? I waited so long’
Although by our words we can say it no longer
When words fly away, actions speak louder
I try to not be the one who’s left holding on
‘Cause when a heart breaks no it don’t break even’
Yet you understand it all, the thoughts in my head
Isn’t it funny how what’s worth the most are the things left unsaid
I’ll rather spend forever with you being silent by intention
Than listen to forced and fabricated verses of your affection
So what’s left?
A bittersweet memory
An unpublished fairy tale
A saddened heart
A dream in flight
..False hope
And in that letter I wrote to you saying:
‘I stepped onto the bridge of love to reach you but it collapsed beneath my feet
Unable to sustain the weight brought on by my inability to love you
While loving you at the same time
And from the other side you watched silently
Unable to lend the hand that I was painfully longing to hold’
And as much as it may seem
It can never suffice to express all that I feel
But I know that in my heart what I feel you feel as well
Even though you make it so at times I can’t quite tell
But if it’s one thing that always gets me through
Is knowing that with love there can never be a me without you
What if
22 Jun 2015 1 Comment
in Poems Tags: heartbreak, love, relationships
It seems smart to avoid what brings the most pain
But hmmm… then again…
I just can’t, I held up for so long but I adore pain is what it seems like
Now I know the pain of losing this fight
How do you cope with a dream that was broken from the start?
When you found out too late and knew you couldn’t turn back
Or rather you ignored earlier warnings resulting in your self-inflicted pain
Was it all time spent in vain?
Don’t want to be stuck in the memory
‘What’ and ‘If’ so perfect when they’re apart
But together it hurts, it rips out your heart
Seems much like the story we both share
Much like the reason for every tear
And so as much as I try to erase it from my mind
There’s always that ‘what if’ brewing on the inside
What if:
Fairy tales went beyond just endless lines
And everlasting love was not impossible to find
What if:
Your heart’s desire would coincide with the other
Bringing the happiness you sought after
What if:
You didn’t have to depend on what others would say
Cause you experienced it yourself. Luckily hope passed your way
What if:
You could just bask in the freedom of expressing how you felt
Knowing without a doubt that what people said was what they meant
They say, ‘What would you attempt to do if you knew you couldn’t fail?’
What WOULDN’T I do seems more appropriate
Hmmm. What would I do?
Have you ever realised how we react when we get the ‘freedom’ we so longed for
The way all the things we planned seem to exist no more
It’s because we know all too well what we ought to do
And fool ourselves into thinking that the false things in life must somehow be true
But I no longer want to be a fool for loving you
When we both know it’s never coming true
I can no longer falsify what remains a reality
The obvious and fatalistic separation between you and me
So again I’m starting over hoping that even if a little you can in some way identify
Cause we promised not to say another word and I really try
Even as I close this envelope and send it far away
I know that there’s so much I didn’t say
But true love has a way of filling those spaces
And so all I wrote was all that was needed
Signed, sealed and delivered
Most truly, Your Forbidden love